I have to admit I was at a loss when my father passed away. Our family of four was one less, a pillar removed, our stable state suddenly denied a solid foundation. Priorities were rearranged; the future uncertain.
Mother became my foremost reason to deny myself of any personal objectives. For a time, during my break, I began to accept that my life would be destined to caring for her: she is old and alone. Whatever I want or wish to do have to wait, her well-being stays first in my list.
Writing became a luxury, not a necessity. Slowly, I lost the desire to connect words and phrases to form a meaningful story. Although in my mind I possessed scrambled ideas and would-be plots, they faded quickly as soon as reality reminded me of what was more important at the moment.
But life is not always as one sees it. There will be times that the unexpected would introduce something favorable to what one first believed as an unfavorable situation. When there is that silver lining that one missed because of the dark clouds of confusion during an unfortunate incident, it might reappear some other time, ready to be taken advantage of to provide a compromise acceptable to everyone concerned.
It will come to us. We will talk and find a better set-up. Adjustments are necessary.
By the way, today is my inspiration’s birthday! If you have no idea who I am talking about, I guess you have to find out yourself by mining my old posts. 🙂
Have a wonderful day, guys and gals!
8 thoughts on “Desired”
So sorry to learn of your loss. My sympathies.
Thank you. I am slowly getting my life back.
It takes time. Nice to see you writing again.
I am still trying. My last post took two days to finish.
That’s a very hard adjustment to make. I am sorry for your loss.
Thank you for your thoughts. I will manage. Mother is a strong woman.
It can take a long time but it will pass. x
Happy you are slowly getting back.